Making a differance?

Dear GOD,
 Thank you so much for allowing me to wake up this morning and get to a meeting and for having this job. Thank you for moving me to this new house as well. It has helped me so much to be grounded in my recovery and help get my life on track. Please God help me to get through this day. I am feeling depressed and discontent for no reason I can really think of. All I know is that I miss my family so much this it breaks my heart. I think my job may also be affecting me. I never have time to do what I would like to at night. My homegroup, youth group, other meetings. Its very dissapointing. Is this something I'm supposed to be learning to accept? I'm just so confused. I wanna be able to talk to my mom. I wanna be doing something I enjoy. I just don't know what it is. I get so bored with everything so quickly. That's why I'm so scared to commit to anything. I'm still trying to figure that all out. There has to be something out there that suits me. I don't think that anyone should have to be unhappy with what they do to make money. I feel like I need to be out making a differance as much as I can. The only time I can really sit still and be at complete ease is when I know i'm giving it all I've got to help another person. Any hoot, I love my life no matter what because in the long run I'm happier than I think I ever have been, and honestly just by writing this all out has helped me to remember that I need to tell my self,  "Ashley, you don't have to go to work today, you get to go to work today." This is just what I need to be doing today to get things going for myself. My feet are on the ground of this present moment, not yesterday and not tomorrow. Tomorrow willl worry about itself. All I need to do is keep your will in the front of my mind and not take mine back.

God, I offer myself to thee
to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties
that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help
of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always.
Amen.